Julie_S, Age 37. Advanced cleansing. 7DW Level 4, Introduction

[Julie_S]

Hi everyone,
I have been precleansing for the past two weeks and I will start my level 4 tomorrow. I am really looking forward to it because I am in a period of personal growth where I feel like I am exploding, just blooming all over and I am anticipating some very deep emotional revelations in my level 4. I am planning on doing the water option...I will see how I feel later in the week as per the juice/water decision, but I feel like I am much better prepared mentally for the all-water. This is a big accomplishment in itself as part of me had been dreading, until recently, the water-only aspect of level 4 because of my prior experience with water fasting in level 3.

It has been a while since my level 3 in May, and the time between cleanses was probably my worse in some ways food-wise but I have experienced a huge amount of personal growth in other areas. Just after I finished my level three I spent a month at my guru's ashram in Florida doing advanced spiritual studies. I ate very well there, lots of good fresh produce but there was also a lot of sugar and carbo's and I started indulging every once in a while. I came home with an injury to my back and hips from a fall down some steps and I spent several months going to the chiro, massage and accupuncture. Around October I was finally feeling better but by that point I had gained 10 pounds. I was really battling a sugar craving. It seemed every day I had to have something....cookies, chocolate, etc. I think this must have been a retracing of an old habit when I was a teenager and going through some difficult times. I began going to a counselor in October and have made some wonderful progress with her help. Being able to look at the context of my life and at parts of me that I haven't seen or examined has been incredibly valuable. I have been digging really deep into my soul and uncovering the hurt from my childhood and healing the pain of being ignored, not listened to, not seen, and letting this little child who has been quiet for such a long time and who is innocent and wild and exuberant come out. This week in fact was just amazing. I am having revelation after revalation and really metamorphosizing into my true self...there is a reunion and unity going on in my body and heart which I have been feeling physically happening in my face for the past few days. My third eye is exploding and the stress that I hold in my jaws is releasing. It seems I can't put enough bright color into my world right now...I'm painting everything I can get my hands on. I'm just gushing all over! And with the protection and empowerment of all the Mothers in my life I am awakening, healing and strengthening every part of my being.

I feel as if I am right now coming into my whole self having healed many of the things I had ignored for years. So this level 4 will be a culmination of sorts and a new beginning. It's really a very exciting place for me to be. I'll write more throughout the week as I cleanse. I'm looking forward to getting to know many of the new cleansers.

Love and light, Julie

[Joanne_M]

Hi Julie,
Good for you! You are so blessed! How fortunate you are to have the time and finances to do all the soul-searching, cleansing,
mentoring and healing you've been doing. Your devotion to the journey is certainly applaudable.
I feel your excitement and look forward to your revelations this week. You're a window into our future cleansing experiences and therefore an inspiration to us!
You go, girl!
Joanne
(I'm old enough to be your mother, but trust I sound like a peer!)

[Tisha_P]

Hi Julie,

Thanks for the eloquent way you expressed your feelings. It was nice to read about insights you have gotten since your level 3.

I wanted to comment on coming to terms with emotionally painful childhood emotions.

I guess most of us have experience with that. I know that I have things buried from childhood and probably infancy (being adopted) that I am carrying around. I am sure this affects me every day in how I deal with people and situations.

I was just watching a televison show tonight where someone very famous was being interviewed. They were being asked about their childhood and they started tearing up and had to stop the interview because there were things that (at 60years old) were just too painful, from childhood, to talk about. They did not feel that they were ever good enough for their parents.

I went through a period with my own mother where nothing I did was right. My hair, my weight, my religion, where I lived, who I married, etc. I ended up not speaking to her for about six months because everytime I did, I felt sick afterwards. I decided that I could not put myself through that, so I just withdrew from her. It took about six months but we came to an understanding of some sort. It was never spoken, but she does not criticize me anymore.

I just wanted to say to you and to anyone else who might read this, we all suffer things from childhood. Some things are more devastating than others. The hurt from a parent, I believe, is the most painful. Parents are supposed to love us unconditionally and tell us so.

My parents are good people but "I love you" was not in their vocabulary. We did not hug either. It was not how they were raised and I am okay with that. I understand now that they did the best they could. We all do.

I love my parents, and they are good people, but I tell my kids almost daily that I love them. I hug them. I tell them they are so talented, smart, handsome (or beautiful -my3yod). I try to find something positive to say to them to let them know that they are great, wonderful people and I am glad to be their mom. I am not perfect and I know that they will look back on their childhood and see things that I could have handled differently, but it is important to let them know that I am human and I will make mistakes and apologize. I remember how painful it is to wonder if my parents ever thought I was good enough, or smart enough. It means so much to a child (any age) when a parent says "I love you" or "good job" or " I like how you are raising your family".

My mom did actually tell me when my kids were little, that she thought I was doing a good job raising my kids. That meant so much to me. She and my dad have come a long way since they have gotten older to be more affectionate with their grandkids than they were with me. I am so grateful for that.

Parents don't realize the power they have to make or break a spirit.

So if you are a parent, tell your child that you love them, or find something they have done that makes you proud, and tell them. This advice would work for the children in this group, too.

I had some emotions be released on an acupuncture visit. It was a bit overwhelming. It had to do with me being adopted. I did not realize just how powerful this all is. I am looking forward to my level three and your level four. I hope that these will be emotionally cleansing for us as well as physically cleansing.

Love,
Tisha

[Michelle_M]

Julie,

So nice to read your intro, and what great feedback you've received. Being a Clinical Social Worker, I have studied quite a bit about how family dynamics influence us. I love hearing that you've become aware of your family of origin influences and are healing from the hurtful things. That is such a great feeling!! Good for you.

I'm really starting to grasp the concept that healing is soooo much more than eating well and exercise. It's a big part, and influences everything we do, but unless we mentally sort out things from the past and current relations with others, we will never be whole.

Spirituality is so important to gain. I'm so looking forward to reading about your cleanse. Good for you - and stay positive. You are such an inspiration.

Your friend,

Michelle_M (completed level 1 Jan.4)

[Niamh_H]

Hi Julie,
What an exciting time for you. I'm so looking forward to hear how you get on. I can really identify with your emerging yourself in colour I'm doing the same at the moment - I can't get enough of playing with colour.
You're a guiding light. I wish you an enjoyable cleanse.
Talk to you soon,
Love Niamh

[Tina_A]

Julie,

Wow! Very exciting to feel you gushing with energy and renewal. Yours will be the first level 4 cleanse I will have had the opportunity to observe and support, so I am very excited to follow your progress. Best Wishes
Cheers, Tina_A

[Sue_S]

Hi Julie, I am so glad to hear of your continued spiritual progress. I have no doubt you will find this cleanse to be of great benefit in your journey and am looking forward to your posts.

Love and light,
Sue S

[Fran_D'A]

Wow Julie! You are just bursting with energy and light! It is uplifting just reading all about it. My thoughts will be with you on your level 4.

[David_T]

Hello Julie,

Your message was glowing with light. I look forward to reading more of your posts.

Love and light,

David_T

[Pat_W]

Hi Julie,

Your post is positivily exuberant. The joy that you're feeling spills over to the rest of us. Thanks.

You sound so ready for the level 4 adventure. I also have signed up for the level 4 but because of the very long time since my level 3 have opted to redo it. The long time between and all the acid producing behaviors and situations..and several other factors, I've been through since last June made me think I'd be better off to clean up my act with a level 3 before I attempt water fasting, etc.

I'll be very interested in following your level 4 and wishing you well all along the way.

Blessings of Love and Light dear cleansing friend,

Pat

[Julie_S]

Hi Pat, I know what you mean...my behavior between level 3 and 4 was probably my worst. Due to the injury I had in the summer I delayed my liver cleanse for 2 months until I felt like my body could handle it and I didn't get that much stuff out of the liver. And a long time had passed between cleanses. I was also wondering if I was ready for level 4. I signed up in November thinking I would try to do it in early December but the timing didn't work out. And as it turns out by the time I scheduled it for late January I was really ready mentally to go into it. You just have to decide for yourself how you want to progress and what you feel you are able to do. You have very good inner guidance so I'm sure you will know what to do. But just because you weren't perfect between cleanses doesn't mean you aren't ready. Just a thought. It's wonderful to hear from you.
Love and light, Julie

[Susan_L]

Hello Julie,

You and I started this journey with HPS at about the same time, so I remember you "back then". The changes in you are SO remarkable.

What strikes me in particular is your countenance. You seem so accepting and at peace --even if the circumstances are anything but peaceful.

I have really enjoyed following your growth. You inspire me to continue on this path.

Susan_L